update

Well since Paula thinks I need to update my blog I thought I better get to it! Its' been a busy month I only have 7 more classes left of Paramedic school... (EXCITED) and then i should be starting on my Masters Next... Yep never going to stop going to school! Me and Adam are doing better than ever it's still hard not seeing him during the week, But it's all worth it. Next weekend is Natalie and Chris's wedding so i'll have pics next weekend to post it's a happy day for her and sad on too. She is leaving after the wedding and moving to El Paso TX. that's where is stationed in the Army. Its' going to be a busy month of Nov but i'll keep u posted!

Adam's Rookie School

Me and Adam

I was so caught up in myself and what I thought was right that in the end I realized what I was missing the most... Yep I am admitting that I missed Adam. Me and Adam started dating in July of 2006.

We met at the beach thanks to Miles and Amanda... I didn't really mean to go to the beach and meet the man of my dreams I just thought I was goin to visit Amanda and meet Adam. On that night me and adam just hit it off and the rest is history. Me and Adam were together all the time after that. We did so much together and we have been through so much. This past couple of months I've had trouble dealing with me going off to rookie school at charlotte I was scared everything would change and i pulled away from our relationship.. Yep wrong thing to do. We started fighting and really just said and did things that wasn't what either one of us wanted... And most of that is my fault I take the blame. Adam is just like any other guy he does stuff I don't like and of course it's his fault so I thought when really it was mine. Adam isn't any other guy, he is his own person and that' why i love him so much. I'm sorry for all that. But it made me realize how much he means to me and how much I want to be with him. I wouldn't change the experience for anything it made me realized that me and Adam are soulmates and that we should be together. I did things without him and it hurt his feeling and I know that but I wanted time for myself and a summer with my family. He understood but I now wish I would have did it different. I just want everyone to know and of course Adam that I love him and that's all that matters!

I'm proud of him for all that he does and working hard on his dreams. I support him 100% and his supports me 100%.

~Ashley

New Start

Well everyone seems to think they know my business so I thought I would tell everybody where I stand. I am me and I am the only person I am worried about. I dated adam for two years and I love him more than I could have ever image but sometimes you realized you aren't getting back what you give and then you go to that person and explain and nothing is done about it. So then it is time to move on. It's not my choice but you get tired of working at something and not having that feeling that it was worth anything. So I am to the point in my life I realized I just need to be me and have fun with my friends and family and take care of myself and my family. I have the best sister and mom and dad. And of course a neice that i can't wait to spoil rotten! So I really only need to breath everyday and work hard to have a strong and promising future... Of course the friendships I have. Life is to short to worry about the big stuff just it will come it is suppose to be!

~Ashley

Hanging out!

Well it's labor day and i didn't have to work sunday or monday but my family is coming home for the App.State and LSU game! So I had some friends over on Sunday just to hangin out and watch the race! I love old times.... It's great!

The Past....

I was going through pictures today and found a couple of my favorite that I wanted to share!It was year 2006 I was living in Winston Salem with Nichole just graduated college nichole was getting ready to leave for charlotte... It was a summer of partying and drinkin... Then Sheila got married I moved home and Cassie and Jack just came along! My bestest friend in the world and I wouldn't take anything for either one of them ever!

Summer is Ending Fall is coming!

Kenny was great! Went to raleigh and it was the 4th time I had seen him in concert and it was better then the first 3. We all had a blastl, it was natalie's first concert oh my that was a handful but it was great seeing her singing with kenny and his songs and just seeing her smile. I wouldn't take nothing in the world for it!

CHANGES..

Well me and adam are broken up if you call it that. but we are still friends.. yeah no one understand our relationship sometimes i think we don't either. well anyone. I am so confused, with alot of things. i just want to find my way in life that i am suppose to take.. lord knows i have taken tons of paths. so please pray for me.

The Future....

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Tomorrow... Is a new step for the Future. Adam starts charlotte fire his dream since he was a young boy. I couldn't be more proud of him. Over the past two month we have had our ups and downs and this next step is really hard. Deep down I know it will all work out the right way. It's just hard loving someone and feeling like that you are holding them back from something they want to do and it's there dream. So today we decided that we need to let our relationship and put it on auto pilot and let it run it's course. This isn't going to be easy but I know he is only a inch away and always there for me. He is my best friend and I know that's way this is hard. But all I want is for him to be happy and make the best of this experience!

Good Luck Adam!

My Friends

So i have done a lot of thinking over the past two months. I know i am a different person so i'm told but the people that know me the best also knows that i've been busy and done alot of changes in my life. But the past two months i've realized i've done nothing with the people that mean the most to me. Jack,Cassie,Erica,Katie,Sheila and Many more... I have missed you all and your friendships. With everything going on I want all of that to change. So with me changing jobs and being home more I hope that all will happen! You all mean the world to me and I wouldn't change it any it for nothing! Thanks for all being my best friends I love you all very much!

Smith Mt. Lake.....

So it was our annual lake trip and what a trip it was it went by to fast.... so I wanted to share some pictures that was taken... This is always my favorite trip of the year!

BAYLEE

So Baylee got to go to the beach with my parents and sister while I stayed home at work. So I wanted to share pictures with you of her...She looks so much like Joey and My dad... Thanks goodness she is like all the Tilley's!

A Year Later Missing Landon

It's been a year and we all are still missing Landon 8-1-07. There is not a day that doesn't go by that I don't think about time and everything he was about. Last year all of us, April,Ryan,Cassie,April,and Jason got together and celebrated Landon's life and what he was about by walking for suicide prevention and depression. This year we are doing it again. It is September 20, 2008 at Tanglewood Park for the details just log on to outofthedarkness.org this will help sign up for our team and raise money in Landon memory, and for anyone else . This year all of us have had a lot going on, but this one day means alot to all of us that new landon and are his friends. If you can't make it just being part of the team means alot and helps up know who all is with us. If you have any stories or special times you shared with Landon and you want to tell your story please leave a comment and share. I want to share one thing about landon that everyone already knows, He was the most caring person you could fine and carolina blue eyes and his special says "HEEEYYYYYY" and of coursing for cassie she was always Flopping....But most for his his hobbies, hunting and his dogs. They were his passions and he always worked hard to played hard. Landon we miss you and love you .... Everyone please remember it means alot to us as his friends and to his Family...

at Sea....

So.... we where on the ship for 7 days, docking at three ports, I had so much fun and realized alot of stuff that I had been over looking and things I forgot I had in my life. I got to spend sister time with my sister that was priceless..Then I forgot what it was like to be away from telephones, and the outside world. it was great... I had to much fun with everyone I was with.. From mix drinks to line dancing to eating all the time and spending time with my friends this was the perfect vacation that I will never forget. We went to so many wonderful places but my favorite would have to be St. Martin. It was so pretty the water was so Blue and I drank so much.. I had a blast.. It was hot to. St. Thomas would have to be my least favorite. It wasn't what I thought it was nasty and everything was on top of each other, shops,and tourist.. it was just not for me. The most fun of the trip was being out by the pool with mom and tanna and everyone and dancing drinking and haning out! It was great. The last night one the "Fun Ship" was so short. We ate dinner and then for our final farwell we all went to the dance club... Even dad stayed up till 3 am... thats a big deal for him. As you know My dad is a big person that travels. So June 2010 we are taking the 2nd annual Tilley Group Cruise.. So if you want in let him know! I promise it will be the best time ever! Just ask anyone that went with us this time! Mom and Dad thanks for the best trip every! I had a blast and Can't wait till we go again!

Tilley Cruise 2008

Well, it was an experience but what fun! It was June 5th Tanna's 19th and we 4 loaded up in the tahoe and headed to Port Canaveral.. Yep didn't even make it out of North Carolina and had our first fight! It was great! We met everyone the next day and just, relaxed and spent time together before we left port the next day. So it was Saturday June 7th and all of us... Which was Me,Mom,Dad,Tanna,Harrell,Jan,Luke,Leslie,Lou-Lou,Austin,Derek,Connie,Natalie,Tanner,Barry,Barabra,Brittney,Fred,Susan,Frank,Renee,Courtney,Cassidy,Teddy,Kathy,Pandy and Dewaye.... We all were ready for the biggest vacation ever!

Family

Family, It's the most important part of my life that I can never change nor would I want that. I have the best family in the world. We have had alot of ups and downs over the past two years that have made me realized my family isn't perfect but we do stick together. I have a dad that anyone would want sometimes.(Just kidding) He has done so much for me and I am blessed everyday for that. My mom is my best friend.... I can tell her everything (okay that stuff she want get mad about) and talk to her about anything. My mom is the one person that I know is always two steps behind me no matter where I am. My sister... Oh my that is a long story... I wouldn't change her for nothing. Yes we fight and yes we yell. but she is a strong individual that always tries to protect me from all the hurt, because I am so soft hardered. She is my best friend but I do act like her mom alot because I just want her to do good. She has always made me proud, but she is a natural at everything! My brother and I use to be best friends but alot has changed the good thing that has happened he and his wife had a little girl name Baylee, oh my i could just eat her up she is the most cutiest thing ever. I hate I haven't been able to watch her grow as much as I would have hoped but life is funny about paths you take! But the most important part Baylee knows I love her and that's all that matters! For the rest of my family yeah it's not a small one...They are far away and close by but the most important thing is we are family and we all know where we stand and the love we share to one another carries us till we meet again!

I am so blessed to have the family I have.

First Blog

Hey guys! This is new to me but I thought I would start to have blog because I have friends and family everywhere and it's hard to keep up with everyone! So keep check i'll update often!

~ashley